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When I woke up this morning.... I felt the sudden change towards my life. Looking around my room, the pictures taken hours ago, the pictures around my room, my achievements, my wardrobe, my books, my work.. Everything! *Grinz* I'm 22! Can you believe it! A sudden glimpse of life, my life, the future, my studies, my family and my fwenz immediately haunted my thoughts in thinking "Have I been good on this earth?" Maybe what Clement said was right.. there would be a moment where u feel that you're of that age of maturity of thinking of the future and what lies ahead. Yes, you might think "Hey Avril!! U're still young!" Don't worry, that was on my mind too.. But thinking the fact that I would need to get my degree soon, having a stable income of my job and of course hoping it would increase, and my dream of travelling around the world, marrying the man of my dreams and starting a family of our own, getting my driving license, watching Pires playing for Arsenal, and having the dream like any other early childhood educator would have "To make a difference in children's lives". This is me! This is what I long for, this is what I need to achieve in this world of mine. The feeling of 22 years in this world, endless thoughts as I blew those candles of mine. So many wishes and dreams to achieve. But hey! I am still young.... And it's not impossible! This birthday of mine brought me closer to my thoughts about life, my baby, my besties and of course.. my family. It wasn't a drama celebration as many would have. But it was a birthday i would remember for rest of my life. Well, will update it later as i scribble on and listen to "Believe or not" by Ryan Scarbury (introduced by my baby). "Look at what's happened to me, I can't believe it myself. Suddenly I'm up on top of the world, It should've been somebody else. Believe it or not,I'm walking on air. I never thought I could feel so free. Flying away on a wing and a prayer. Who could it be? Believe it or not it's just me. It's like a light of a new day, It came from out of the blue. Breaking me out of the spell I was in, Making all of my wishes come true. Believe it or not, I'm walking on air. I never thought I could feel so free. Flying away on a wing and a prayer. Who could it be? Believe it or not it's just me. " These lyrics somehow said everything of all I wanted to say today. Believe it or not,I'm walking on air. I never thought I could feel so free. Flying away on a wing and a prayer. Who could it be? Believe it or not, it's just me. I thank God for the promises he made, for the happy faces I have in my life, for the wonderful events that he planned, for making me who I should really be. Life isn't the emo rides we constantly take or we constantly want to take. We can choose to skip the ride and look around us. Everything happens for a reason. I've learnt a great deal of my life and is that the joy and comfort in my life lies within my hands where I choose to live as a happy and contented person or choosing what I want only to live. Well, I don't know if one could ever understand how it feels to be 22. Maybe for you it might be different, it's just a year older, fancy parties and candles to blow. Who knows! I made a decision, to look towards the future, work for the future, happy for the future, and whatever else I dream of having in my life. I aint looking back to the past where tears were shed, where unrealistic dreams and promises were made, where people come and leave. I choose to leave that side of life and move on to a happier side where i have my family, my baby, my besties, my fwens, my work, my studies, my kids @ school and definately an older me.... You might be saying "Avril, how can you just leave everything just like that and be happier?" Trust me! It's a different feeling all over again. Read the lyrics again and you will know what I mean. As promised, an update on the happening event yesterday! Had a surprise at the stoke of midnight, with Emma, Jadey, Jem and Clement at my door step with my favourite cake. What else can I ask for this birthday. It was al planned HOURS back without me having a single clue! Thanks ........ I always wanted a surprise! And hey baby... I didn't spoil my surprise for oncE! =) Couldn't sleep that night, with Clement by my side.... awwwww...... We woke up around 9 plus, with Maggie mee for breakfast and headed down to the bird park. I swear the journey was long... super long.... thank god someone invented the mp3 to keep us company through the long sleepy and sleeping journey to the west! Did i mention i love my iPod shuffle? *Shuffle shuffle shuffle* Had Mac's for lunch with bird looking sessions, shows and where the hell are the owls! Hot day but it was amazing smelly and ehhehehe... yesh.. the session with the drama queen june which my daling was going goo goo ga ga about. If you think she was a bird, you're wrong! She's a bird keeper who's expression was so drama, her smile was amazingly wide and simply looking like one of the birds. Walked though a large area where parrots flew everywhere, bridges that looked endlessly long and no mosquitoes surprisingly. You can see from the pictures I gonna post up later. The macaws were beautiful, the eagles amazing lonely and cockatoos simply intelligent and we were simply Tired! Got back, had a bath. Godma came with a hazelnut cake! Yummy! Plus.. my sister came back with another chocolate exotic from Sweet secrets! Woohoo.. Well, it was my dad's chinese birthday too! Double celebration! Mummy cooked mouth watering dishes that gosh! I need to run man! But what beats the feeling of seeing my family, my uncles, my aunties, my little irritant dominic and my baby there to celebrate the special occasion. Well, it's back to work and the reality life I have. I should start being focus in my work now, the urge of studying is building up! And.... I found a degree that i would probably be heading for.. Check out the website! Bachelor of Science (Early childhood Education) by Wheelock College. http://www.rtrc-asia.com/programmes/apdetails.asp?courseid=26 A wide spread of interesting modules... From drama theatre to special needs to society in the singapore context to social policy. The future subjects that would be increasing in Singapore Education system. It's would be an eye opening experience for me... especially with theatre, film and the importance of play collaborated together in this degree of early childhood. Well, would be finding out the important details of study loans and stuff! Hopefully registering in the weeks to come..... Another important factor in my life would be having the discipline to save money! Terrible urge of spending, that's the terrible side of me. But one thing's for sure, I did change in my thinking whenever i shopped or window shopped. Thanks to my baby the nag machine! Well, I think before I buy! And trust me.. it works... The many questions as I sit in the fitting room: "Do I have something like this?" "Oh no! It's my favourite colur black!" "How much's left in my bank?" "Clement always say "If i spend, it means he would have to save" (Where can i find such a darling!) "Do I realy need it?" "Ok.. Clement's gonna kill me if I buy 2!" "Must save for our holidays!" And at the end of the shopping trip, I either walk out the shop with nothing or just an item I know I need which cost cheap of course. Well, I am trying to save and it takes more work and endless thinking sessions when you are on a shopping trip. =) Well, we have to head down to the bank soon! The account that has the answers to our dreams and future. Well, then.. that's all folks.. thanks for every single one of you who remembered and made my birthday special. For those who don't remember.. don't bother! It won't bother me either.. Enjoy the pictures!
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+*In Perfect SiLence*+
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+*LookinG ARounD*!+
+*BoreD?*+
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+*Weren't they just memories?*!+
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