Tomorow will be a long day for me. Heading to Novena with Emma then checking out the Bintan trip offers at the travel agencies with my hubby! Can't wait!!!!! Woohoo..... The ferry, the resort, the lovely nights walking along the beach and being in the arms of him of course. The perfect budget holiday! And hey, we're gonna prove Egeria wrong that couples who go to Bintan or Bali don't always end up breaking up! WE'LL BE THE EXCEPTATIONAL PAIR OF COURSE. We have already decided to grow old, have 6 kids (That's clement thinking I'm a mother pig, I'm contended with 2 or 3) and course spending the rest of our lives till we have old grey white hair!

Looking forward for sunday mass with Emma! with Teochew yummy porride to finish off the week! I do look forward to weekends more than the past now. Cause I know I worked hard through the week and I deserve a good rest and a peace of mind in the weekends. Remembering the past, weekends were always ending without a doubt of unhappiness or simply the feeling of "What the hell am i doing this to my life?" Funny it seems when I think about it.

But as so Anthony Robbins would emphasize in all the talks "The past does not equal the future".
What has happened in the past is over, it only makes you learn and not ponder and ponder why it happened or what made it happen. Does it matter? Pondering over the past only makes one feel the same way of lonliness, failure, undesired and unrealistic feelings of trust, disappointment and guilt. Why would one want to live in that era all the time. Would it change everything now? No... of course not. It might let you see things differently or respond to things in another manner and not how you responded like you did in the past. What matters now is now... the future.
I learnt a great deal of friends, true friends, people who do actualy care, people who showed me the false fronts of them, the sides of betray, importance of family especially my sister and my cousin, the meaning of true love.
I learnt to control my emotions, thinking of the consequences before getting into mood swing moods, learnt not to hurt and be the best for my loved ones. I learnt to see love from another side of my life.
Well, for the little ones who's reading this. TRUE LOVE isn't about money, saying the three words, doing the sweetest things, draw the nicest cards, sex, makingout, the passionate kisses.. and etc. The word "love" is defined to me as little surprises, saying I love you at least expected, matual respect, trust and understanding, it's about the little kiss in a blue's moon on the cheeks or forehead, it's about planning. It's about who we are, how we think as an individual, it's about persistence and fate and everything nice and sweet!

You're seeing the different side of me isn't it.I've finally grown up? I know some part of me did. eXcept when I do wanna have a softer and fun side... that's when Teacher Avril is at work mode. Well, for all those who's part of my life now.. thanks for staying put and not leave when I needed you most... for those who aren't in my life.... scram away.... you didn't make an impact in my life... so I don't think I should too.... So LIVE WITH PASSION! (Doesn't that ring a bell baby?)

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