Friday, July 01, 2005



Friday night with Lala having a quiet date with my sofa and medicine.
Well, I've lost my voice, appetite, taste bud and simply lost my energy.
What more can I do?
To discovery channel, to MTV, to watching dvd to waiting patiently for 10pm.
I'm missing you. u miss me?
Channel surfing aint fun without u.
Caught "The truth about cats and dogs"
Catch it if you can. Pretty good show that got me thinking about..
What is love?
Pretty babes or cute dudes? Sex? Money? Temptation? Trend? Security? Etc etc..
List goes on.
Honestly,
I've been in love twice in my life.
First was years back with a dude that I admire for his ability to stand up for friends.
The relationship didn't work. But I guess it made me look further to whom I hope would come by my life and make me feel loved again.
Been in and out of relationships or rather it's called domestic relationship.
Where often people relate that term to happening with someone yet not in a relationship.
Well, fate brought me to three Js. Fate brought light to my life that somehow, after all that i've been through with these 3 people, it wasn't a feeling I felt with the first love.
It's hard to explain if you really know what I mean.
Love is unexplainable. It brings a smile even when u miss the person so badly.
It's thoughts just make you weak yet strong in heart to want to tell the person how much he means to you.
That is love that is simply "Speechless"
Hope you get the picture.
God brought me to meet someone that I simply just agreed with my heart
"I don't think he's my kind"
A friend replied "You never know" Somehow when I see her she always felt I'll end up with him since the first day I met him. So then .. comes little teases, little mistress and mistra.
Then come exchanging of phone numbers and emails. Typical love story isn't it.
First date for a movie?
then come the litthe hugs and cuddles.
Well, it's not the starting of a love story I would go on and on.
Our relationship was ........ i guess only we know what it was.
It went on till he met someone else... and there .. it ended on the spot.
Heart shattered moments,took me a while. I felt the hurt that I had years back where
Someone I loved left me for another.
Life goes on. I told myself, love isn't everything.
Met new people, moved on., trying to forget him.
Within months... a msg just set my heart beating again.
Once again, I met up with him.
I never lost my feelings for him, I just had it aside.
Spent lots of quiet moments together before he really had to move on..
The last few days with him, packing his stuff and just walking down streets.
Those were the days of our lives (Copied from Pickleberryfairy)
As tears left the airport that night, I wished him well and happiness.
Fate took a twist with the calls from him, all night non stop MSN.
I was falling.... in love with him just like the first time we hugged.
6/7 August... a day of simply bliss, fate and amazement.
I never thought I could feel that love that I felt before.
The love I feel now, is endless bliss that I have never felt.
A feeling no one has ever given me before.

It's not about gifts or reports.
It was about care shown from the very heart.... his heart.
It was scoldings on how I shouldn't eating things when I'm coughing
It was about the little snuggles u showered me when I'm sick.
It was not giving up.
It was about love
U got me, my heart, my everything.
For all the times we fought and lost ourselves.
I thank god for making us realise how important we are to each other
how much we care and love.
It amaze me.
and i hope it did for you.
So that's my love story for Friday's edition of Lala's ramblings.
Got your story to tell?
Read this somewhere.....
Take a look at it.





When you look at love, you're looking into the face of appreciation.


Throughout the history of mankind, we as a world culture have made love out to be mysterious, complex, difficult, and undefinable. It is the subject of endless poems and literary works. There is an enormous amount of material available out there about love, a lot of it contradictory.
We have been given the impression that to define love is near to impossible. Maybe there’s a fear that if we define it, it would somehow be less powerful...less impactful...less exhilarating. Maybe we like the mystery of it. But is it really that complicated? Perhaps the complications surrounding love come from all “stuff” we add on to this powerful emotion. Lets drop all the baggage surrounding relationships and define what it is we are experiencing in the moment of love.


How Do We Express Love?

We do not always express our love. Love is a feeling and the expression of that feeling is separate. It’s an action. There’s a practical reason we don't always express our love for another. It’s an issue of TIME. We only have 24 hours in a day (if you make it up that way). If the expression of love was a core ingredient to love, we would have to be stingy with who we loved, because there simply wouldn’t be enough time to demonstrate our love for everyone! If you see the distinction between the feeling and the expression, you can then love endless numbers of people.

What YOU can do to improve your relationships.

  • Talk with your partner openly and honestly.
  • Don't sacrifice yourself for the relationship.
  • Take responsibility for your feelings.
  • Know you can only change yourself.
  • Be yourself always.
  • Know your intentions behind your words.
  • Communicate your wants and needs to your partner.
  • Accept them as they are.
  • Let go of absolute value judgments.
  • Drop your expectations of how they 'should' be.
  • Listen with your whole body, mind and soul.
  • Express your appreciation and gratitude openly and often.
  • Examine your beliefs about love relationships.
  • Use humor to defuse difficult situations.
  • Examine your desire to control your partner.
  • Have a dialogue about your beliefs.


Honesty can be scary but it's necessary if you want a close intimate relationship.

There is more I wanna learn, to wanting to love him more and cherish him the right way.

There is more to trust then to just say i do.

It's about courage to let go and believe.

And that's what I'm learning and it makes me indulge in my self confidence in what we have.

I can't wait to hear your voice.

Good night world.

For baby's home and Lala's sleepy.

Got a date with Joey for being her adviser for the Saturday! Finally some time away from the east!


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