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I think I overkilled my brain cells with the amount of DVDz I caught within just this week. Counting and still counting, I caught more than 10 shows and the number is still increasing. Thanks to Dolor's daddy, we saved money, saved from the crowd, saved from discomfort in those cinema chairs and of course just away from civilisation. Just got home away from home, had "A missed call" DVDs maraton", Chinese shows, MTV, Endless animal planets, Baseballs games on cable that is awesome!, 3am Mac's delivery, a whole lot of K.O snuggled sleep, dehyrated from water (stubborn me!), nice chicken rice, afternoon nap, car wash which I simply lurve and home sweet home! Releasing myself from the work pressure that I've been suffering from, I find myself often stoning, glazing and simply dreamy. My entire sleep cycle is out of control and the flu bug is back by popular demand with the precaution checks everyday that I might have gotten the chicken poxz. OH! Can't wait! Don't get me wrong, just that if I do get it now, I won't suffer from the old aged symptoms of the poxz plus I save $140 for the vacination that I have to go if my body resistence is so damn good (which I guess it's not especially with the flu virus that I'm getting once a while). The weekend's here once again, and here I am typing away on what's on my mind. Just got back and heading out again, to the library and to bank in money! Yes, the control urge of shopping is decreasing, except when I see the ESprite signboards that triggers that mind of mine "OH! go in Avril... come on... Won't do any harm! (even if you just have buy a top or stare at that white skirt that u've been eyeing on)". Yes, the terrible temptation! but, I can control my hands! So... quick Dolor, get well for us to go on that shopping trip! Which reminds me... I'm missing my babez, Pickleberryfairy, Rosa dearie, my Lil bao and her darlin and her whole grooving grouppies. I simply can't wait for the holidays which is currently starting the end of Nov instead of mid Nov. With concert, funfair, orienation for new intake and for planning for the kids camp, I''ll be mugging endless for the weekends for the next couple of weeks. Just pooped my vitamins and hopefully getting ready soon to head out despite my bed seemed so ever comfortable. "Nope! Get your lazy ass off!!!! Work work work!" The ipod's been playing tunes that gets me grooving, emo and simply not myself. It's bad at times, cause it affects the whole working mind and body. Sometimes I find myself just being lost in transition and time Reflecting on issues on myself. I often thought you would only refelct when u're older in life. Guess what, I came to a point to realise "I'm 22 and going 23" which was a good wake up call of everything that has been happening in my life. Reflections are a part and parcel of life, how people made you see their faces, mask and images of events and happenings. I thought alot about the past, of how I made one unhappy, how I made one miserable, and how I lost one I loved with my heart. At the end of everything, it's a closed book that make me reflect about how imperfect I was to be the cause of these. Maybe I am the cause of these events in my life, but right now, who am I to blame or push the blame. No one and not even myself. Things happen for a reason, tears fall for a reason, the heart hurts for one, the mind plays for none. Reflecting on this is a funny bliss of what I am now, stronger, more matured in my thinking and views, more secured about the things around me and I have gained trust in myself and the people around my life. I fell thrice for one in the past, I fell over and over again these days even when I'm already down. Each time the new chapter begins, I turn the page of my life and write something new. Even though, there are nights I'm down and lost, losing away from myself and this reality world, I fight this fear of falling and hurting even if it takes tears and pain. I have gain trust in myself and for the people who cared and know how this really feels, I thank you for picking me up when the broken pieces fell in front of me. I'm not afraid to say that u'll never feel this pain that's left here and how memories linger in this mind that flashes back and forth without a trace. Maybe someday you'll understand what love really meant and how much it meant, maybe someday. who knows? maybe not a day. We don't know life takes us, where fate plays this game on each of us. But we know, we learn in life, we understand in hearts.
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+*In Perfect SiLence*+
+*inteRest*!+
+*LookinG ARounD*!+
+*BoreD?*+
Click on START first, and wait till the background color changes. Once it changes, hit STOP! The addiction starts here..
+*Weren't they just memories?*!+
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*RAmblinGs oF a bEaUtiFuL LeTdoWn@ 5:05 PM*