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The word 'Ironic' lies within the subconscious mind Stuck within the dreams and reality According to my horoscope it says "How can you be true to yourself, if you're not sure who you really are? And, how can you be true to anyone else? If another person is in a similar state of uncertainty, how can they be true to you? Too often, we base supposedly deep relationships on flimsy pretexts, shallow assumptions and convenient pretences. We provide for each other what we feel is wanted of us. We want, in return, what we imagine we ought to want. Something more meaningful is emerging in your life now. Don't fear it"
of self mindedness, sad thoughts, of prejudice, egotistic, and pure physical or emotional agony that's running through their lives. What are we then when we look at ourselves? Read these lines from a book I'm reading "What is life?" "Life is a test, life is a trust and life is temporary assigment Character is both developed and revealed by tests, and all of life is a test. You are always being tested. God constantly watches your response to people, problems, success, conflicts, illness, disappointments and even the weather. You will be tested by major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved criticism and even senseless tragedies. An important test is you can act when you can't feel God's presence in your life." I was caught in a emotional state when the book asked what is my view of life I was lost, dumb struck, simply caught within the emotions which I've been fighting I lost part of my life a few months back where I felt at the bottom It was everything I loved and gave up most of my life for it Even when life's aint going well, I knew I'll go all out to make it happy and bliss Many asked "Was it worth it or giving up what you loved for just this one?" My heart was "yes", I loved eveything about it and I'm willing to be who it wanted me to be. A few days back, the urge to move on and clicking on that mouse was an ache. Removing every detail and keeping it aside. As it was named "A beautiful memory" It was for that moment when I looked at it now. Maybe it never felt and saw what I did or would do But, it didn't matter anymore. I was not imperfect for it nor gulit stricken by the fact I was the cause of losing it maybe lies shouldn't come from it in the first place, promises from it that I would see someday In the very first place, it never started loving the way it could. Play it like a game, say the truth like it meant it. What lies within all these, were all faces of masks. Masks that people would see of characters at a play where the lead actor/actress just acted the various roles of an individual
and hurt at the very right spot. For that few moments through the numbed skin, I looked with a glance. A mistake I made. Once pierced, it'll bled again. I learn. It only took a small paragraph to make that impact, the truth, the promises and seeing through those lies. It was at that moment, the heart hurt, breath loss, tears fell, the moment I needed, the moment I felt so lost, the moment I realised. I leave God to remove the pain and the hurt.
and making me see the real truth within those lies that were once told And to a special one who's been there all these while for giving me comfort and advices being there as a friend when I lost it even till this day understanding when I'm emotional and lost giving me thoughts as a position of a friend when old memories haunt me like a piercing glass constantly making moments so special and sweet for eating lunch with me on my bed speeding down with the car just to see me in pox fully spoiling me with car rides to see my bestie. always there to hear my nonsensical craves somehow being able to find me when I'm lost at departmental stores (Yea... my merryland Esprite shops) Smiling at me after a long day at work to be proud of the MaC and Toss despite the jokes the daddy and I make opening the knob with the sexy guru of ours, what knob many might ask the hugs that keeps me strong in my emotions for sharing experiences of your life in making me see how fate plays and how time heals accepting my true feelings and thoughts loving me for who I am and not what I am the promises we have with one another mutual understanding of the trials we go through it's you and me that no need description or explaination it's a silent acknowlegement between you people
It's a endless list I would type....
but know that after each day of our different work enviroment we have, I'm cherishing each day we have, each snuggles we love, each photo we smiled and grinned, each tear we cry, each joke we laugh, each fight we experience, each fighting or biting session, each coffee breaks with our peeps and each and every moment with you.
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+*In Perfect SiLence*+
+*inteRest*!+
+*LookinG ARounD*!+
+*BoreD?*+
Click on START first, and wait till the background color changes. Once it changes, hit STOP! The addiction starts here..
+*Weren't they just memories?*!+
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*RAmblinGs oF a bEaUtiFuL LeTdoWn@ 6:56 PM*