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Found something interesting on Friendster Well, or rather heard from Joey today about how you could view who have been checking u out on the website Cool as it might sound to one of my bestie and I were... "Awww man! Who's checking me? We wonder!" People I was surprised to see and people that I was shocked to see The name list was long and addition killer was to figure out who's are some of them are Funny how Joey's list had people who were connected to an old one and the strange part of it was that I'm not very close to them Well, isn't that what people do when they are bored? Checking people's profiles, blogs, new pictures.... (I don't deny I do that when I'm bored) Especially when they have this major huge number of pictures you can upload to What's next? You can now install your web cam to friendster? Who knowS? Been suffering from this pain in my stomach and I figured was the RETURN of the GAstric with a late lunch after blading with my kids @East Coast today 4 cups of coke and a barley to kill my thirst Late dinner yet it was yummy! What happens? As Joey would say "See sweetie, intelligence" Alright alright... being a complete silly loon in drinking those drinks I didn't have a choice? The kiddos enjoyed their children's day at the park Blading was great, hot and I'm not burnt out, just dehydrated I'm killed with the fact that my photoshop is not working I think I said it over a millon times BUT! I need it soon!!! Blogging isn't good without an addition of exercising my so called trying to be arty farty shit Shopping tomorrow in town? @11am where the shops are open and they just hate the first customers Yesh, I hate to admit it.... I hate crowds especially when I shop of course the other reasons were that we haveto head back to wash up before heading to Chloe's place and afterwhich the nice dinner with lil bao and aud... Can't wait! Won't be home till Sunday evening... so till then... Happy checking who's checking you cause maybe it might be me? *innocent look* You never know who's watching you
I'm in a mood of Kelly Clarkson Those emo songs that get those draining brain cells working Finally! the weekend is here and Lala's got dates in store! Friday: Blading with my kids at East Coast (Children's day celebration with kites as presents from me) As Joey would say "You so spoil your kids!" Spending the day @ Joey's place, away from civilisation! Saturday: Pre-noon shopping spree @Orchard with Joey Nothing new to many... Lala and her esprite addiction! Damn the white skirt... it's awfully sweet so is the darn price! Attending my sex guru's birthday party at her place for a bit before we head down to Esplanade for a nice dinner with Lil Bao and her darling. Sunday: Lala's needs to be in her work mode once again, and of course a date with God. Lala's gonna be packed up with work for the next few weeks Terrible schedule with last minute preparation Bought a new diary today that stated 2006 Kiasu? Nah, just wanted to buy a new start since it's only 3 months away Plus! Design was simply.. why not? Time check: 12.28am Alarm's gonna ring at 6am Darn! too tired to even think I'm absolutely restless without my photoshop CS Hopefully Joey's daddy comes back with the lastest CS on Saturday! Upload too many pix.... don't know where to begin! Someday, someday.....
Sneeze Sneeze Sneeze Think someone thought of me today Someday we'll know or is that me missing you? too lost my days are filled up time isn't time anymore It's not how time passing so quickly but how we cherish time at this point of time Sometimes I think it's too hard to handle But I pick up the broken pieces of this life of mine and move on someday maybe u might sneeze like me and think "Is someone thinking of me?" or is it just me being the emotional sucker Chocolates never felt so good tonight a little indulgence and a little snug thanks to yours truly (",) That's how much it takes to smile
Saturday night has been a emo night for many Mainly people that are so dear to me that's including me Slept only at 4am this morning and here I am I think I need a supply of sleeping pills Heard a song sent over by Pickleberryfairy It got my mind having flash backs As so the song would go.... Read and you'll understand
Found myself sniffing and aching Doctor's visit was a special one with Dolor next to me. Nasal congestion, flu virus... OH! I'm dead right in the brain. I miss the kids at school despite being away for only 2 days. Honestly, I think I am dealing with the work stress I'm in which leads to the virus crumbling in every single bone of my body Heard a song on MTV that was lame... but hearing the lyrics of it... HEY! what the hell... As the song goes... Looking at your picture from when we first met, you gave me a smile that I could never forget And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night Wrapped around your finger, always in my mind The days they went cause we stayed up all night Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go Some days I’ll make it through, and then there's nights that never end I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know All the doors are closing, I'm trying to move my head And deep inside I wish it was me instead. My dreams are empty from the day, The day you slipped away I know I can't fake it, there's no one else I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go Some days I'll make it through, and then there's nights that never end I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know (Backstreet boys) As we all think about where we are now, would you do it all again? Midweek as the days go by. Listening the Jerky boys comedy are happy moments for this night Especially when discomfort in you overtakes your helpless mind I've got a tea date with Pickleberryfairy tomorrow! I can't wait!
 Dolor's 21st birthday part 1
 Dolor's 21st birthday part 2
Snoozing over a hot Milo That's how currently the night will end today Got back from a 4 hours tuition Been in and out of this hectic work week that my body's draining me out I'm suffering from an exhausted dehydration that no matter how much I drink it makes me feel so empty inside yet full The prolonged body clock sinks deeper that I miscounted my days, weeks and dates "What day is this?" My nose is numb like a knife in my throat Feels like I'm in for a round of disturbed stabs everywhere in me that can't seem to disappear Who am I to kid? I bring my stabs everywhere now cause scars are left there for a reason For you.... maybe there's none anymore. the purpose of the next few months would be indulging and focusing on work Year end proposals, concert, graduation, camp, prepration for next year Endless overloading that engage the lifeless mind The weekend's here , finally some time away from here 11.33pm... I heard this song over and over since the time I woke It's been playing these days and it's never leaving my mind. Look and see on maybe you might feel me like one who never saw me it's just maybe you may it's just maybe you would feel a slight part of these scars Maybe... just maybe... I woke up early this morning around 4 a.m. With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms I've been trying my best to get along But that's okay there's nothing left to say but. Take your records, take your freedom Take your memories, I don't need 'em Take your space and take your reasons But you'll think of me And take your cat and leave my sweater 'Cause we have nothing left to weather In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me, you'll think of me. I went out driving, trying to clear my head I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this And all the baggage that seems to still exist It seems the only blessing I have left to my name Is not knowing what we could have been What we should have been.So. Take your records, take your freedom Take your memories, I don't need 'em Take your space and take your reasons But you'll think of me And take your cat and leave my sweater 'Cause we have nothing left to weather In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me. Someday I'm gonna run across your mind Don't worry, I'll be fine I'm gonna be alright While you're sleeping with your pride Wishing I could hold you tight I'll be over you and on with my life. Take your records, take your freedom Take your memories, I don't need 'em And take your cat and leave my sweater 'Cause we have nothing left to weather In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me. Oh, someday baby, someday... Keith Urban "You'll think of me" (Currently playing)
Suppose I said I am on my best behavior And there are times I lose my worried mind Suppose I said Colors change for no good reason And words will go from poetry to prose And I, in time, will come around Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else? As John Mayer sang this tune on my ipod my emotional side of me starts buliding I can't seem to find the right words or feelings Numb I may describe. I'm caught up with my insomia nights where I slept only at 4am last night, time check now is 10.29. Headed to a dearie's working place last night Excellent place for chilling out and have a good meal Rating of food = scrumptious Been spending some time alone with Dolor lately especially when I'm so overloaded with work and tuition on weekdays and of course my designer's gonna get occupied with attachment and assigments And lastly, Dolor's heading back to Perth next Feb. What more could explain our time spent together. Speaking of Aussie... I'm missing Egeria and Fel who's all so busy! Had a long conversation with my dearie fwen Seeing her muddled up and disturbed within her thought that was the last thing I wanted to see of her she is a dear fwen to me, someone who stood with me when I was happy or when I lost myself Issues of being with someone the constant reminders of "Maybe's" in our lives. Where do we really start and end? As the many people I met within these 2 months Short as it may seem I saw the many faces of intellectual, playful, confused, perky, uptight and people who lived life as they loved Yesterday was 10 Sept Maybe if things were different, I would be there. But looking at how the present was for you yesterday Maybe I wasn't good enough for you and I wouldn't change what's happening right now Why would I? Yesterday came a topic on how people viewed others Gestures, body language and simply feelings Do one really get affected by how he/she in the surrounding of people When do these masks of one appear within us? Would you ever know who's putting on this mask A mask of many characters, a form of deceive and the self-conscious need of being NOT yourself As every moments and events that I see and everyday that passed me I thank those who made me see and realise I was made this way for a reason a unique reason that no one else could be me I've began loving who I am, what I am The purpose of my life I'm stronger despite the scars that left by someone I loved I carry these scars with me with memories as I walk I really felt that I would walk this aisle with you and of all the dreams we shared That person wasn't meant for me and could never be me As I heard one say "The chaper is closed and the key is lost" No matter how hard you try to find that key The book in your life is lost within the many of those who lost someone they loved before I've opened a few chapters in my life that I never saw before Family, Love, Work, Friends, Feelings, Insecurity, Trust and Myself as an individual I took a month plus ago till this very morning to work these chapters Inscurity and Trust has come hand in hand where I don't see it as a downside of relationships I've removed the barrier in me, the lost feeling that pulled my instincts made me be who I never imagined I was Someday maybe... you would see the true side of me I thank God for his decisions in life where he brought me to see the world in a better light now when fate brings to old friends together as ones in love that friendships old and new accept me for being me I have grew to a certain level where I wouldn't go back to whom I was then For every moment I gave myself selflessly before I found what I needed right now at this point of my life. And I'm cherishing every moment I have with that special one.
 Dedicated to a fwen so dear to me When u're feeling down right now.. these thoughts of maybe might rush through your head Will one ever find the meaning of maybe when it just happens all the time in our lives Things happen for a reason People come in our lives maybe just to look for love and not love For us, it's a lesson to learn. To be smarter the next time. What could we ever make things right? To love the right way to the right person Would one ever love you the way you do? Yes, someday, someplace and somewhere... Fate might have brought two together. But, does the one feel the way you do, love the way you do? What ends up is us as the ones being hurt and get back hurt in return Is love meant to be this way? hurt and hurt again? Scars in your heart that never could be healed? Tears in our eyes that can never be wiped away? Pain in mind that could never be erased? Some others could move like they did... and not feel the painful scars that they had left behind. As time goes by..... they'll still be there... and we'll still be thinking "Maybe...." (I'm here for you dearie... always here... just like how you were there for me when I fell)
You tend tobe more dominant, and people long to possess your wild nature. People find you fun, and a real live wire. You're most like a Ruby because people simply can't take their eyes away from you your bright captivating nature draws people to you. Congratulations ... You're the sparkly fun gem everybody craves.
 Yesh! Mad when the bookstore goes "SALE" Lala's obsession with big books, small books, thick or thin I can't stand it! I want a bookstore of my own! It's a week's long holiday for me tommorrow. Lots of work, tuition and fianlly catching up on my beauty sleep. Lala's got the cough again.. too much lychee? NaH! Tuesday is another round for all the party people Funny day to see funny people grooving. Lala has a mission to complete The First Season of "queer as folk" by end of this week. Gay show if u're interested Grinz! I miss Pickleberryfairy who's disappeared. Sobz! Lala's off to her Merryland with a hungry tummy and my indulgence with my scrabble.
Been realising that I haven't blogged in ages and most of my entries are pretty random and filled with pix pix and more pix. Well as so the story goes... I had an incredible teacher's day with the kids, with the party people and with Dolor. Yesterday was truly food indulging and party in school. With lots of party food going around, how can the teacher and the kids not resist! Headed to Garden hotel for a company's high tea. Despite the full tummy from all that partying in school, well.. hign tea was rather a "I need my bed" session! Met Dolor after her gym and headed back around 7pm. Late late late... Avril's late for a hot pre teacher's day party. Picked Xiao Bao up from Pan pacific and headed down to China black first before heading to Phuture. Met up with the party who's amazing great! The music was good... with no one on the dance floor until 11 plus. Well, can imagine how someof us were just on our feet dancing near the bar as we hear the dance floor calling us. Finally, the grooving starts while we danced on the platform to get some space away from the crowd below! 11.45 and off Dolor and I drove off to meet Pickleberryfairy at Phuture. With an uncomfortable feeling, I checked my phone and there... a msg from her to say she aint going down. Reverse back to the same parking lot and back we were at Chinablack with better music as we entered agian! This time, the crowd was packed, the drinks were pouring freely and yesh most of us were tipsy. Stayed pretty much at the VIP side as it was their friend's C.k birthday. Well, the floor was a better grooving ground for us. More space, more privacy, more tipsy and more dancing. For the tipsy side, I couldn't remember much how what I did or said or even whatever I drank for most of the time it was Vodka down my throat and a whole lot of dancing with everyone around me. 5 hours straight... it's been a while. As Dolar said: " everyone was tipsy, dancing, hugging and everyone was les around us" One thing bad was that I danced closed to one who I knew for only that night and I don't remember much about the intimacy dance. I'm sorry for making you feel upset about that incident that made us got upset with one another in a way. That's one thing I have to learn the next time, be aware of what I do the next time I drink and I will try to do so. As the night went on, everyone was almost gone, dancing with Xiao Bao were endless and grooving with Dolor was amazing. Pre teacher's day party for me I must say. Left around 3am with fingers crossed that we won't meet a road block. I'm aching all over with alchohol deep in me.
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