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 Lil Bao and Lala! thanks for being such a crazee bestie! A lil comfort for a "Crime story" night The dolor, Lala shutters and the Bao talker!
I tried to understand
I smiled to know I hear it every hour I tried to surpress all I see the clock ticking I count the moments left I never saw a day without a call or just a moment of silence between us Time.... How much time do I have left? Little moments to have you here when you last told me u're leaving A simple day, a simple time Would there a day one would ever understood what time was? what friends were? and what reasons of calls were? The urge of giving up is just here I'm tired All I needed was time after a day's work a simple time from someone uninterrupted time But I guess the day would be the day I lost Time... How far would you go for time?
For my love... on this Christmas eve...
 Just before I left the house
itunes got me grooving to Justin Timberlake while I got a little carried away with the pictures Looking back at Joey's grad! Lala's lack of space for pictures! in reminder that Christmas and New year are coming! An evening with baybeee the upgraded parkway, the busy Lala while Joey gets a handful of bags we get giggy busy with last minute presents too much shampoo and of course A row of Lala's fav shops! ALL LINED IN A ROW! plus an additional ladies restroom for after shopping piss! A drive back for an exchanged present for Pickleberry and a little chat with baybeee to end off the night. It's finally Christmas Eve! Good night world
And while I get busy with the new uploaded pictures on the bloggy (Check it out if u're free) my baybee joey's catching the Kingkong at Cini playing mahjong a family day in a funky way! 2 days to Christmas and a whole lot sneezes I'm getting! A good start to this festive season, my dearest couz got accepted to St Gab's Sec and not forgetting I finally cleared my room, made the Tiramisu AND... Charged my Nano *Grinz! it nearly died on me!* This is including the present I bought for Baybee and myself! This Christmas would be a quiet one, away from the crowd, away from the celebrations! Just wines and booze, friends and comfort Somehow as we grow, a quiet night of celebrating is more appropritate than those crowd noises, head banging body squeezing young people who simply looked like they never clubbed in their lives! But what can I say... 18, 19 years old who just managed to get their official note of heading to clubs, getting all high and dancing like they never did before What to say, we have all been there and done that... aint such a triller like how it is to most young people! New year's eve been planned out for baybee and me... a quiet evening, a quiet night... spending just quality time to welcome the new year *Smiles* I'm off to catch "all about you" Thanks to my baybee for buying me her first Chinese show! *due to massive consideration if I should even get it for 2 months!* to one and all... Merry Christmas and a Happy new year!
I don't need anything from you
 I replied with a nice grin on my phone it types: "I want Joey to stay. Haha! shouldn't you ask Joey what I want instead? with a kidding laugh at the end "the Oh oh message tone beeps" Well Bao, you can try! Kidnap her in a box and wrapped a ribbon around! Send it to Pasir Ris and you have made me happy P/s: Don't forget to put more stamps in case the post man says "Overweight parcel, please send back!" But thinking of presents.. I think I have completed what I need for the year 1. My Ipod Nano (Definately a heartbreaker on my paycheck!) 2. My havaianas sandals 3. My Starck watch and my charm bracelet from Joey 4. My 7610 (present from joey's daddy who planned such a high impossible interest rate ) 5. My Digi and its crumpler pouch 6. My lamp from aussie 7. My countless shopping trips @Esprite and not being able to get my white skirt! 8. My davidoff perfume (from joey's daddy) 9. A picture of my grandma by my bedside 10. On a personal note which money could never buy strength and courage love and care trust and fwenship respect and acceptance sacrifice and tears truthfulness and loyalty maturity and comfort Work and fwenship family and besties and a love that can never be replaced This Christmas: I wished .... time and strenth trust and respect acceptance and comfort less tears, more laughter and being happy with who I am Loving myself, to love others to forget the hurtful and remember the ones that care successful and organised catching up with my degree keeping my family safe and sound, happy and jolly to guide my baybee in her decisions in life and of course to be happy my besties gurlies whom I simply lurve to be as they are! to my bestie whom I simply care about I hope she seeks love in herself and that someday someone out there will cherish the love, care and patience she has for someone she loves *U know who you are* For the new friends I made, many thanks for being there and making me see how life can be simple and happy wished Mama was here despite the many dreams of her and of course my aussie trip in June *mountains, koala, shopping, driving, the marine life, farms* "Do you see what I see?" 6 days to Christmas 12 days to New Year 14 days to a brand new year of work *Hello 2006, Goodbye 2005* (And to realise, I'm 23 next year! Bleah!)
* The Sunday * Too long a wait* Nuggets * Simei * Masking Tape for Joey * No nice heels
(with disappointment) * Hello Kyle and Wanrou * A zoom drive to Church * A sleepy mass ("Joey! Get outta of the car") * Nice Green tea * A zoom drive back to Simei * A candle light dinner@ Jack's place * Too many aeroplanes for Joey! * Christmas pressies for my tuition kids * A good talk after a walk * Rosa's calls with good news for Christmas and New year! * Taxi taxi * Good night baybeeee * Hello to my folks at home! * Testing chocolates for mummy * Waiting for the match to begin * Random blogging * Hello Stranger * The Nano charges while the iTune plays * Where's baybeeee? * Bugis shopping tomorrow after tuition (purlease baybeee?) *
This is what it read on my screen
She can now alas see through you put aside the grieve of losing you however she holds a belief that you possess no such grieve She sees you now in a different light a stronger more focused light that shines upon you you spell of pride and prejudice you possess no urge to rekindle the light not of love but of innocent friendship you treat them without the curse of that failed love you smile, laugh, talk with them and should she stop pursuing this weak light the light would immediately fall dim and die away amidst the thick darkness She sees clearly now how to do things you steer clear of her you do not want anymore of her not the love and neither the friendship you want only of God and anything else all except her you do not shed a tear you do not fall apart in emotions you see no reason to do so you feel her is long gone from your heart it has dispersed into millions of shattered shards She owns nothing but a kind heart a heart that yearns for friendship of equal treatment as with others She knows she's not wanted so she hides away in her corner of darkness and sadness and regret She shuns away when she realises She is not wanted anymore so the light flickers and then just disappear into the dark further into the silence and deeper into the deep endless sorrow and regret... A classical literature that captured my heart years back Come to think of it, I loved Literature being a convent girl, it's not everyday you have Literature as one of your subject and of course taking it as one of your O Level! Gosh! When was the last time I heard the word "O'level". From the classical works of Jane Austen, the story have proved the most infinitely adaptable to the screen. Looking back at the days of KC, most of us dread the subject and the teacher, the essays we had to write, the analysis we have to brainstorm. It was obviously your luck if you had the writing charm to get the grades. For me as an individual, I only enjoyed the books of Literature. From Romeo & Juliet, Pride and Prejudice to a much favourite Merchant of Venice (Thanks to my sister for easy updated notes that she left in her book) Yesterday's movie was a test of understanding and of course patience, dragging parts of the story that kept many eyes in those cinema shut for a moment and as the story moves, it shows the battle of sexes between the characters, marriage, respect, money, family and as one of the reviews commented "The hate that dare not speak its name is, of course, love." How the caption of the movie just leads mind to wonder and many hearts to shatter. "Sometimes the last person on earth you want to be with, is the one person you can't live without" In reality we see, could we ever be in that last person or that one person I had a friend who's been in love with another more than she ever expected she could be What she could never had was a chance, to make another happy as a mate A special friendship, a complicated heart, were there moments of love or lust Matters of the heart, which one could never understand. As we tell ourselves or our peers how much time will heal and let us/them see how love works or how fate twist. It's a feeling easier said than done. What's left for us all is to ease the confused mind and pick up the broken pieces that we wondered "Did the pieces ever fall in the first place?" I guess.... sometimes .....................................
 Inspired by the movie "Hitch" which I finally managed to catch on Dvd
The sentences ahead have permanently made my thoughts wonder a little The movie, like the ordinary... the guy ends up with the lady What moves my mind to smile... What a guy who was once a coward to stand up and face reality, to pick up the pieces of what he lost and took the courage to fix them all together. Will Smith played a awesome role in being the "dick doctor" in other words. I have completed the book called "Landscape of dreams" by Maggie Taylor. Described as a comtemporary exploration of the Surrealist world view, the photo collages and how they produce beauty and intriguing emotional impact on reader like me. I'm a sucker for art, films, paintings, designs and how I wanted to ever be in this line. But, sad to say I'm a confessed amateur individual who simply can't draw professionally for art. Well, maybe kids simple drawings like animals, and other objects, that would take me an extra mile in focusing on the art piece, complete it and have tons of pencil shavings all over the table. Looking at what I have written, I found a made no sense. A rambling on a Friday, while waiting for time to pass by, another hour till I go for my date. As one would say, "it would be just like the first". I'm still in the daze of dating and knowing another, what's good about it? I'm not a coward to believe and see what's out there for me and who are the friends and people who shows their true heart to care and love. What is love? Don't want to go through that topic of love. Immature love or true love? Only you would know, only you can figure them out yourself. I'm off for a great movie and a lovely date with yours truly. *Would it be like the first?*
And here I am, back of this seat of mine
Been having such a great time these 2 weeks that I lost track of time and of course the lack of blogging. Managed to blogged up just a couple of pictures while waiting for more from Cernie, Rosa, Nic, jadey and Shingy Okay.. that's a long list to collect from! Too much partying for the week and of course one more tonight 3 dec: A queer's night @Happy. Too many men. Too hot to handle. Too queer and happy. 6th dec: Tuesday @Thumper. Too many ladies. Too many kisses on Chloe. Too high and dance. 8th dec: Her story @Zouk. Too many awards. Ladies and bad stripping. Martinis smooths me. 13th dec: Parents are coming home! While I'm off to Joey's grad and a fashion show after that. Another party on for this tonight. These 5 days been really special especially with you spending some quality time despite knowing that time is running short at hand Thanks for these days I'm missing my Pickleberryfairy who's off to Aussie I hope I see your post card soon and not only sending it block 478! I'm just 10 blocks away! For now.... Wait up for the pictures! * More thumper pictures with Rosa * More Jadey's bbq pictures *Joey's design work and grad pictures!
I miss you
it's been a quiet night I whispered I love you But you can't hear me Were you thinking of me too?
Exhausted and Restless. It's been a while since I last clubbed ever since Liquid room.
*A Tuesday @Thumper* 2 Queens night It's girls only as they say Grooving hot music Poles and Dancing Vodka, vodka, vodka Where's my Martini Too many ladies as Irene Ang hosts the night my Chloe dearie with her kisses The solo individual winner for the the most kisses award 3am and home sweet home I feel vodka down my throat and I can't seem to catch up with sleep The night's been quiet today, helping my parents pack their luggage cause they're leaving on a jetplane and leaving me back here once again Not because I didn't want to go, but too many things came up and of course... I'm hoping to plan my schedule, work and much more I managed to clear my wardrobe with 2 big bags of clothes plus, my table which was filled with work, papers and simpy rubbish! And of a sudden, I felt a certain emptiness in me the emotional self being is tangled with my emotions I hope my bestie is feeling better *hugs* I'm always here babe though I'm gonna miss you when u leave for your trip! My boss left me a message about my progress with my conferences. And got a big scolding for just thinking about next year's work theme when these holidays aren't half way over! Have I been overworking or simply a kan chiong spider! As known to many, I've believed to be that perfect imperfection I guess no one's perfect as much as they want to how much can you be truthful to yourself and God about what you want, what you did or what you achieved I've seen faces of people that changed within time how perfect they try to be or act in front of another within themselves, are they being truthful? The perfect imperfection, how can one ever overcome or accept it Would you be one of those who would love another's imperfection This entry can go on and on... and no one can ever explain how humans work either can I I'm beginning to see how God works in certain ways how they planned signs in our lives that answer prayers how fate made you see how unworthy those who aren't truthful in their words and how things go around and come around I belived in that, do you? For the prayers he answered the insecurities I prayed for for the lies I once felt so strongly for making me a stronger person in my life for allowing me to love in a better way and showing me how I was cherished Thank you *Pictures will be up soon!!! Look out for them*
Q.U.E.E.R the N.I.G.H.T
The weekend's here
and I'm outta here! Driving down to town soon Early christmas shopping and burfday pressies! So many things yet so little time Well, at least I managed to get a pressie for my sister A good deal for a DKNY watch, why not Sleek and simple.. My family's heading to Bangkok without me a whole house to myself.. with events that have been pre booked on my calander Tomorrow: Birthday celebration and might head down to zouk just for my fairy! Monday: Pickleberryfairy's birthday! Tuesday: Thumper after all these months of working on a Tuesday! Wednesday: *No plans yet* Thursday: Her story @Zouk with my besties gurlies Friday: *No plans yet* Sat: *No plans yet* Sunday: Jadey gurlie's bbq with my besties... Next tuesday: Joey's Grad and fashion show and the list goes on! I'm outta here.. 23 days to Christmas!
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