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No surprises how the New year just went by with a blink of an eye.
Exactly 12 hours ago, I was awaken with the many tasks I was given to help my mum. Here I am at 11.41pm, blogging! What the hell don't you think? I'm grateful for the extended holidays till Thursday With an additional day of holiday unlike most other working individuals It isn't a holiday for Teacher Avril this new year yet, I'm piled up with a new theme of planning and evaluations work load I have to clear! Was planning to head down Zouk tonight for Paul Van Dyk but the insufficient sleep brings down the good spirits of a Martini lychee and good music While the bed awaits me, and waiting for Joey to wash up, blogging is the best way out in killing time and boredom Was thinking back of certain things I said and done these few days I broke a self promise of not to overdo things as a result of complicating over the most simple things in life. I must be reeling over certain events that resulted me banging myself in bed and thinking how stupility had overcome my thoughts that were right on track. It's been a while since I heard the acoustic music strumming on my itunes and how I wondered and wished how these fingers would work fine on a guitar From Lifehouse, Maroon 5 to John Mayer and Howie day, they never sounded so darn good! How often do you get yourself sitting on your chair with good music and an imaginary KTV atmosphere in your room that you create by singing your lungs out while releasing those mental blockage that has been left in the mind. Been trying to get my foot down at emotions and life, so easily to say I would, to hard to even think about it. Things in life aren't always a perfect clear cut, especially when it perplexes the unsound and lost mind of many I'm a self admit fine example, which many find it hard to comprehend. As a side of my life, I was left tangled and helpless with each prayer asking to be stronger individual to do the right things and say the right words. What's ever right and wrong? Who was there to judge or to point the mistakes Countless moments I blamed myself for certain events in life that I often found myself being blamed for even thinking that way, that the road we travel isn't always smooth, yet sometimes people we stop and meet, creates the lil hiccups and the wrong turns where we regret and ponder over the years I guess everyone of us have our moments of success, love and happiness, but they will all pass in time. Keeping these in your life will depend on how much one is willing to sacrifice and reach for these good intentions in life. God knows how I could never take another disappointment back to back with the many sacrifices and love I willingly gave, yet left me here tangled with scars. As far as time has passed by us, we often find ourselves watching these memories flashing back in a slow motion process that we begin to pinch ourselves to find that we've been caught within the illusion and dreams instead of reality. We're all learning... very much learning the right way of life Browsing through a book that Egeria handed me years back when I was at my lowest. The book titled "Lost and found" keeps people on track of searching the sliver linings in life. How we often find ourselves losing people and things in life, yet the return results might sweep us to somewhere away from the hurtful reality, to a place of a better life and a different view of our lives. An emotional blogging and thoughts entry for the night, I find myself opening to a new horizon in life that we don't often see. Nothing in life is forever. There is never one who said it was. It's how we individuals lose and find the simplicity and comfort and life and how certain things happen for a particular reason we can't seem to find It's one of those nights, one of these nights.... where we tell ourselves, it'll be okay.
A moment ago my eyes were closing my head was nodding and my nose was swelling At this moment water has perked me up a lil an inspiration to blog after a week But all of a sudden I yawned.... and it's back to square one I think the bed has a better effect than this blogging. I'm a self proclaimed daisy pie that all I longed for is just a laze and a daze.... *Promise to upload the recent pictures soon! look out...*
I need to learn how to sleep
without waking up at 6am and 8am Lost track of the days that silly me thought I had work! Darn! Bring me back to my dreams...
 And so they say
the best time to head to Chinatown is in the afternoon Well, think again? with the hot glaring sun and the terrible heat Teacher Avril got the dehydration symptoms and a major feet ache! Where's a massage when I most need it so badly My baybee's in Malaysia for a lil family trip despite the desperates pleading of wanting to go too Darn! Friday's "fun" instead at work Well, but baybee's being a sweetie in helping me with my shopping there while I get tied down with the work load I have to clear by the new year's The weekend's here with the new dvds bought from there and a night cycling with baybee tomorrow! Finally spending some time together away from my work Happy weekends.... A thought of MOS is quite a temptation this sat with Bao! Hrmp! Shall we baybee?
 And so this is a late post of shutterbug moments
I'm finallly able to log on this com of mine thanks to my Nano being low batt my Digi is too full on pictures and my phone needs some mp3! Been so utterly busy, that once I stepped into my bed nothing tempts me but my bed! and counting down and disciplining my body I need my body resting by 11.30! Too much work, too many kiddos' party invitations and so on... It's gonna be long day tommrrow... Water play for the little kiddos in the morning and Chinatown in the afternoon for my BIG kiddos and tuition at night Yes, a trip out of school and hopefully no dreadful moments where I would wanna strangle their heads! Been speaking and screaming too much, teaching a K2 class is no joke with kids unable to even write properly, or even lazy to sit up Teacher Avril is as strict as she can be thanks to the high expectations of what my mum had of me. I'm losing this voice with an upset tummy down again with some flu I predict BUT fear not! Pipakao is on the way, hoping to fight these stoopid germs for I have a night cycling maggie mee night with Joey on Saturday and a lamp lunch date with the family Till then Joey's mummy's song list is rocking on my itunes... the good old tunes, the oldies, the love songs... Awwwwwww.....
A million whats and a million hows when one tried to understand yet wasn't given a chance One never went away but staying right here one was helplessly empty
 Gardening? You got to be kidding!But lazing on this hot Saturday.... that's what the sun's been tempting me to do Been busy here and there today and finally ... POOf! Here I am on my chair enjoying my icy water, cool aircon and great jazz But before I realised, I look again at my clock Shit! Joey's picking me in half an hour. I hate the sun I loved the rain Please come back some day XOXO your greatest rain fan
 It's been a while since I sat down and actually think what to write with the short week ahead and the cold weather I'm not surprised that I've been sneezing and coughing Saturday was a party for Joey's bestie FEL at Zouk with a nice dinner treat at Marche's we ended the night at Zouk with Dave Seaman spinning and funny people running? Oopsy, I mean dancing! A lazy wet Sunday staying home and chilling with baybee! It's back to school! An sms came around midnight with the news of the death of my ex literature teacher from KC with the numerous amount of sms I got within the morning it was enough to fill up my inbox Drove down to St Joseph's church with Joey for the prayers Many ex kcians, many familar faces, many shocked feelings It was an unexpected news, which sadden many of those who was touched by her in one way or another For me personally, she was the one who made me see Lit differently with a dramatic teaching method, most of us could never fall asleep in her class and of course from a 40 plus in Lit, I remember shooting up to a 80 marks Many memories of her police action stories and of course the discipline she had on us It was a night we remembered the old days, the school days, the days where this kind lady came into our lives Thank you Miss Devi, you'll always be in my prayers For the night of many kcians there, it's like a meeting up session with old mates and teachers. Don't you miss the old days Joey? where the word senior and junior were such hot topics? *Grinz* Spent the Hari raya holiday with a short make over for Joey's lil brat Lil brat = Larissa *Joey's lil sis* and of course her darling and Joey. Ended up snipping off a little of my hair and of course a great change for Larissa We ended up dining at Swensen with the young love birds and Joey's parents. *winks* Yours truly has achieved the target of shopping within half an hour A coat for raining days and running shoes... with addition of discounts going on... why not? It's a good buy! It's two days to weekends and hopefully able to meet up with my honey bitch! and getting my ass down to the gym on sunday morning! 11.30pm, with my nano, digi and my hp being low batt! I have to swallow at least 4 pills before heading off to bed! Till then, where I can sit here and type the night away again I'm enjoying Michael Buble singing on my itunes and I'm loving the rainy nights... Good night!
 A first Friday of the year: never been better This whole week has never been so stressful and busy. A new year, a new start, new classes, new kids, more work and less time. Thank goodness for the short weeks at the beginning of the new year, I get in between breaks for me to just sit down and just think Been talking to my bestie lately, sometimes I wished I found the right words to make her feel comfort and make her feel like there is love not only from one but she has to try to start anew to look for love that she deserves. But, who am I to say all these, to make her see what I do. 2005 has past, a year of tears and pain, of loss and hurt It has been a year of myself as an individual growing, maturing and learning from mistakes. Events that has happened in the last year has made me see that fate makes things happen, yet fate makes things twist how things happened for a reason and how prayers are answered It's how people takes things for granted, and how sometimes some just dont deserve your love, sacrifice and apologizes and wishes. I never stopped beliving in love, who does? Maturity lies within how people see you and how you make things right Who would be right to say they are matured enough to handle the word love No one's perfect, neither am I I learnt to believe, that I will be loved by one who cares and believe right in their eyes: That this is you, this is the person I accept to be as and this is who I love Despite the many times I would wish my bestie to move on and look around I stopped and thought... how she felt as how I was before unable to connect the emotions and love the heart and the mind has It makes one ponder about the memories, yet leave one sleepless and hurt in the night It's how we fought for the words, 'fate, patience, time and love' But who would ever understand these four words who could ever wait and love, sacrifice yet hurt for another so much, and despite it all It just wasn't enough, or never be enough When would be enough or satisfied? Or make another see what's right? As I wrote this, this song came upon my itunes I stopped and listened, and heard carefully of the lyrics of this song Read it, maybe you might understand Finally I figured out, but it took a long, long time
 New year's day before heading to Joey's place A lil shutterbug moment before we headed outside Zouk with slippers!*just to say hello to people*  "Can we go now?" Two silly 'children' trying to fix the chicken little toy Two brats I lurve! My baby brat I spoil! Finally some spare time to blog and bitch
does it rhyme? Been so damn busy ever since work began and here I am thinking of the next holidays And now..... I have the sudden urge of stopping this crap and say goodnight Too daze and tired to put up the New year pictures I had with Joey so here they are, unphotoshopped with little display till then............. I still wonder was thanks all that could be said?
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+*In Perfect SiLence*+
+*inteRest*!+
+*LookinG ARounD*!+
+*BoreD?*+
Click on START first, and wait till the background color changes. Once it changes, hit STOP! The addiction starts here..
+*Weren't they just memories?*!+
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